5 photos, 21×29.7 cm

Masturbation. Even the word stirs guilt and a cringiness in me.

It could be because of the shame that was thrown at me if i wanted to wear a tank top. Or the guilt that was spat at me if i peeked at kissing scenes during movies. Maybe it was the disgust I heard when they spoke of those women who wore heels and makeup. Perhaps it was the phrase ‘ boy will be boys’, which gave no space for girls to be girls and left me feeling passive. More often than not, girls in particular are raised to reject their own sexuality.

Then again maybe it is simply something I cannot relate to, regardless of my upbringing.

These photos depict the hesitation that stops me from claiming my own body.